I've been afraid | Deeper | Post

I've been afraid of many things:

Afraid to try, in case I fall short,

Afraid to be vulnerable, in case my scars are turned against me,

I've been afraid to speak, in case I'm misunderstood.

But now I realise that the only thing I was ever really afraid of doing, was living.

Because, each time I chose fear, I inadvertently did not choose life,

I did not choose myself.

I chose to not fully experience,

Never fully be present, and never really ever feel.

Now I realise that this is actually the greatest misery:

It was not the things I was afraid of, but rather it was the fear itself.

I now realise that the one thing I need to fear most is being afraid.