Life is about the tensions

It's about the ups, but it's also about the downs.

It's about the fact that you could be walking in your greatest blessing, yet feel like you're not good enough to be there.

That's life.

For me, it's particularly in that continuous search for peace.

Where on some days I feel closer than on others.

But really, it's a pursuit.

I've come to value peace as the most important aspect of my life.

If I don't feel it, I know I need to get back to equilibrium.

It means that somehow between the "going about my everyday life", I've stopped listening to God as vigilantly as I did.

It feels like unease.

It's hard to put words to it.

It's not always that there's something specific to point to.

It's a feeling that cannot be denied.

It feels like I'm not myself.

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Each time I call on Your name, You answer. Even before I say a word, you already know the depths of my heart.

Even to the places where even I cannot reach. The places I have no words for...

The places I have no thoughts for,

The places of complete silence.

You are there, too.