What's the use? | Challenging ourselves

What's the use of it all?

What's the use of writing, when there's a possibility that no one will read it?

What's the use of speaking, when you may be left misunderstood?

What's the use of building, if the house may never be used?

We all have an innate need for meaning and purpose; to know that what we do matters.

I was recently reminded of how young I was when I began my writing journey: probably around 8 years of age.

I wrote as a way of expression because I grew up scared.

I was scared of speaking up.

I convinced myself that no one really cared about what I had to say,

I convinced myself that speaking up would open me up to a vulnerability that would let people in close enough to judge me, use me or even affect me.

Some of my first pieces of writings were scripts.

Many of my scripts were unfortunately never completed.

I noticed this tendency in many other activities I pursued for the next 10 years.

A few years ago, I reached a point where I got tired.

I got tired of a mediocre life, a life of never being willing to put myself on the line and never willing to fail.

I've reached my biggest, proudest milestones since I made this decision.

It's a reminder of just how muchlies on the other end of vulnerability.

So, to answer the original question.

There is always a benefit to trusting yourself enough to give yourself to a task, and completing it.

During the execution process, this may not be evident.

It may not even be evident directly afterwards, but greater good is always the result.

In the next 21 days, I've devoted myself to writing a script.

I don't know what could have come out of it, because I never gave myself a chance to do it as a child.

I don't know what will come out of this challenge. But I'll show up for myself everyday until I reach the end mark.